Sunday, May 19, 2013

the feels


holiday started. yay? nah.

I feel screwed.



the feels you know.


That's why I'm writing like this.

The weather is crazy. It can be hot and it will hit 36 or 37 degrees or so ..and then it will rain...and then the weather become hot again. WHY. MID YEAR. I don't like you. The only thing I like about mid year is because of my birthday and there is a holiday. But what is the point of the holiday if there is no holiday at all? If you know what I mean.

So. I think I need to head back to 1 of my 4 assignments that I need to get it done during the holidays.

GOSH. I need something cold.

Friday, May 17, 2013

Ever wondered?

Have u had those EVER WONDERED? questions in your head?
Ever wondered why humans existed?
Ever wondered why I fall in love with you or you falling in love with someone else?
Ever wondered why you always get hungry at the oddest hours?

Ya. We always have those questions and sometimes we do have an answer to it while sometimes we don't.
Things...just happened the way it should be.

What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.

That's life.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

sour lemons and lemonade

When life gives us lemon, we make lemonade. Heard before? Ya..classic right?
I realized I haven't been updating my blog like I used to a year ago. Things changed and I just got lazier. haha

So for the past month, what happened?
Well, it's been a roller coaster ride, and life really gave me lemons. Somehow, Im glad the ride has ended for now. NOW.

On April 16 (happy birthday mummy), I hurt my eye. It was a careless accident. So I got a bad scratch on the cornea, the doctor called it cornea abrasion. And i wonder how i managed to hold it for so long before i went to see a doc at a clinic who then referred me to a specialist, which then I had to go to emergency for that. Imagine an eye lash in your eye and when wind blows in or when u start laughing, your eye starts to tear non stop, and it's so spicy. For the next 2 days, I had to see a specialist at the hospital itself, which he gave me 2 days MC. I haven't been on MC for a long time. At first, I hope I could go back to class but doc shoot me by saying,' you can't even see properly, you can't even walk properly, stay at home and rest your eye, I will give you MC." haha..Yes, that 2 days, I couldn't even open my eyes to the light, literally like a living zombie or a vampire, had to stay away from the sun. So I spent my 2 days of the afternoon at the room downstairs, where the curtains were the darkest I could find  with the coolest room I could sleep in. It was torture, you know those sticky stuff your eyes will have when you got infections and stuff, I had that too and it made my eyes close shut because it was so sticky. And every 3 hours when I have to open my eyes to put the antibiotic drop my doc gave me, accumulated tears flow down. And my vision? blur. and the condition kept going on for 2 weeks.  Couldn't see properly, couldn't read properly. And then only I realize how imp our eyes are to us.

Remember the game called operasi burung hantu which we used to play during secondary school? I didn't really fully understand the feeling of blind people until I hurt my eye.

After that incident, I really crawled into a hole. I lost confidence. I don't feel passionate in whatever I do anymore. a friend told me, it's because you feel insecure after what happened, not because you are lost. Maybe yes, because I really went into a slight depression, I don't know what I was doing anymore, I felt useless. Today, I might have find myself back a bit with those assignments, back to business..but my eye isn't. I still have a slight blurriness on my right eye. I hope one day I could have my perfect eye sight back. I really want it back.

Enough of that, I think most of you heard that story enough already.

I turned 21 over the weekend! of course Penny, who has the same birthday with me finally came! I missed you penny! It was just a small gathering with some karaoke and drinking after that. Im happy everyone turned up and everyone went home safe. Thanks to everyone who came! I really appreciated it!
Next day, the day itself, another friend brought me to Louisana Cafe at Plaza Kelana Jaya to have "all you can eat" spaghetti. It was awesome, and I had 2 plates! Yummy! I love the chicken carbonara. It was AWESOME! hehe

Thanks to everyone for making my birthday special. and thanks for the gifts too^^ I love it!

But that weekend wasn't all that nice since I had to finish my assignments over the weekend. It was a headache. Bt im glad its over ...for now. Here are some pictures for you guys to enjoy! ^^

Written May 9, 2013..didnt had the time to post it up until now ><