I guess...I grew up?

Things have been odd lately. I feel myself...is not myself? Like my previous post. People change..probably me? I grew up.

I'm single for more than a year now. I have never been single for that long. Can't remember though. Probably that long relationship I had with someone last time made me forget about a lot of things. They say love makes  you blind, I was indeed blind..

People get lonely at times, I do feel that too. But one thing good about being single is...you don't have to worry about that special someone, worrying that he might not love you, worrying that he might be angry at you or any of his feelings. Plus, you won't worry that the feeling will fade, cause there is none.

But liking someone is a privilege, a happiness, sometimes...it brings miserable, sadness and hatred too. Yes. hatred.

Feelings can be complicated.
Feelings can be simple too.
It's just how you look at it.
or.
how you feel about it.

Recently I could open up to him again.
laugh, smile, joke around? probably got open minded already? or probably i just don't want to care anymore. probably in my  mind would be. "Anything....It doesn't matter anyway"
and the fact I need to get my camera back. He just wasted 20 minutes of my free talk time talking on the phone.

One thing about getting used to things is. Once you start doing the same thing every day, it becomes a habit.
I DON'T LIKE IT.

Skipping to tomorrow's schedule. We are going on a journey to take photographs. Thanks to photography which I like to say ...I KINDA SUCK AT IT. yes yes...i admit. i really do suck at photography. someone must be laughing at me right now. he must be saying : PHOTOGRAPHY IS SO EASY. yup..easy to you..NOT ME.. continue laughing.. I know you read this..so LAUGH! haha..

Wish me luck! and hoping for a beautiful clear blue sky weather tomorrow please~~~~ Thank you!!!!!

Finally, I could breathe

It's been a CRAZY week. The stress came all at once. Terrifying. No. It's more like taking your life away from you. I don't know why but I feel like for the last 2 weeks, a lot of energy have been drained away from me. First, the food poisoning. It was awful. Second, the 2 assignments that have been killing me inside out. Third, that awful results that I never thought it would actually happen to all of us.

Anyway, it's all over. For now at least. Finals is coming in 3 weeks and I have anther assignment due - Photography. Hmm. All the best to me and all of us then?

Actually nothing special happened recently, so I guess that is the reason why I haven't been updating my blog as frequent as I do in the past. People change, I guess so do I. And I think I just changed into a person who doesn't like to blog as often as I do? Suddenly I remembered something from Merlin. Gauis asked him: what happened to the boy who first came in 2 years ago? Merlin: the boy changed, he grew up.

Speaking of growing up, it has been half a year since I became 20 years old. ( no more 1 in front..haha!><)
Yes, and I did grow up. and I came to know to that ..sometimes..reality are not what it seems. It may be perfect on the outside and pleasant to your eyes and ears, but the truth is, it never was. Lies.hatred. Betrayal. Reality is never perfect. Well, that is what I think for now.

So... Monday. hopefully I get to relax myself with the movies! Can't wait. Like I said to Michelle and Peng: I need CLOSURE! haha..don't laugh. it's the truth. I have been waiting to watch breaking dawn: part 2. Can't wait to see what the movie will be like after reading the book 2 years ago. And I don't like to miss out the ending.

I guess...that's all for now! Happy happy!^^

1 week of Freedom

It's our mid term break and tomorrow, we will be going to Malacca. I have been looking forward to this trip for almost 2 weeks already. Finally it's here. I'm still halfway in my packing. I could do it later.

So 6 of us: Mic, Michelle, Peng, Leng, Kent and me are going to Malacca. We will be having a BBQ so we went shopping today. It's like we have been staying under the same roof, buying supplies for ourselves. What will happened if we really did? (who knows?) haha..

Yesterday, my mum came back from Beijing. She bought me and dress and a leather jacket. love her so much!!!She said she hated one thing there, which is you have to bargain to get the cheapest price. It's tiring. haha. I can imagine that! After that, we went to eat durian with my aunt near Bentong. It's an orchard but they have rabbits and geese and TURKEY. We went to eat lunch in Karak after that...(ending up eating a big Patin that costs RM117 ! OMG)

That's the good news? the bad news? I haven't even start my assignment yet. Great? Great.

Degree life is like this. busy. hectic.

and GREAT? look. I have 4 more assignments due this month. OH YEAH.

Photography....CRF....Fiction writing.....and Advertising.

Right now...I think I would just enjoy the holidays first and bother it later (after I come back from Malacca lah~). Need to remind myself to take some photos tomorrow...

Weeee~ enjoy the photos ~

Oh ya~ I graduated earlier this month! hehe

That's all for now~^^

Lost soul

Lost in the sea of people. I hate seeing myself like this. Keep staring at the wall...thinking...I need to keep myself busy, busy with things that keep my mind busy...busy from thinking of the past..Not like I want to, it just keeps appearing in my head, my dreams. I don't like it, especially when I want to get over it.

I can't concentrate on anything. Grades has been dropping. I know it's too early to say, or maybe I'm just KIASU. But, I can't accept it the way I am right now.

I need something to cheer me up, make me feel happy. Probably this Thursday would help, or maybe the Saturday's concert will do the trick. Too many things going through my mind and I don't like it.

2 more days to go. Big Bang concert. Have been waiting for months for this. Glad we queued to buy the tickets. But there will be another queuing to go through before the concert. Can't wait for it.hehe

and then...Next week will be our diploma convocation. hmm...I don't know what should I feel about it. Happy? Don't know.haha..Hope it would be smooth then.

That's all for now. Pictures? maybe not today. till then.^^

Craziness- awesome? holidays

Today is my last day of my crazy holiday.

Yup, crazy. 2 months plus...but it seemed quite long..but not too long...and I don't feel as if it's quite short either.

So, there has been crazy things that me and my friends did during this holiday.

ONE is queuing up to buy BIG BANG tickets. Okay, it's not like we want to queue overnight but we have no choice. When it's our turn to buy them, CAT 1 and CAT 2 were already SOLD OUT.

Another, is me having my own internship.At first, I didn't really like the idea. Because, being related to someone who worked there before, it gives me stress. PLUS, the pay is not enough. What to do, my parents insisted. But anyway, I had a great time there. Learnt a bunch of stuff I didn't manage to learn in my previous internship. It was a great experience. and I mean it..

and thanks for the farewell dinner guys, it was an awesome one.^^

As an intern there, you need to do your own assignment. A video or anything. And I have this idea popping into my head at 5am. Ya. 5 o'clock in the morning when I suddenly woke up and couldn't sleep.

Here is the link if you guys haven't watch it yet: http://switchup.tv/View.aspx?vid=8979&cid=20

And since I posted it one week ago, it already has 3000 views. I'm happy. But though, it could be much better. But I would like to thank my colleagues who helped me along the way..without you guys, I'm not sure if I could pull it through...

Anyway, here are some pictures I would like to share you guys with^^

So, tomorrow will be my first day of my degree, the orientation...Hope everything goes well. Well, the scholarship...I guess I have to move on.

Peace^^

The past

Human brain is one funny thing. Well, at night when you dream... Sometimes the past just come haunt you in it. Resulting in  waking up in hurt, confusion and agony. Well, most of the time is a messed up story of your past. But, the story that lies beneath it. You know what it meant to you.

Well, I'm that kind of person that dreams a lot. When I mean a lot, means I have more than one dreams in a night.

So the next day, I would be like dead fish. 

Anyway, someone said that someone still has feelings for me. and he did confess it to me.What can I say? What can I do?

I can't do anything.

That was the past. You, me, everyone knows it.

MOVE ON.

I'm a fan of Dog Whisperer. Yeap. coz I have a dog of my own. I mean at my home. I remember what he said. When people rescue dogs or when one of the owner passed. Dogs don't live in the past. It's the human that couldn't move on. Resulting in aggression in them. Sadness in them. Well, human have to move on. In order for the dogs to live a balance life. Because if the human themselves are not balanced, how could they lead their men's best friend into a balanced life. 

Dogs live at the moment. and I envy them for that. We could do the same. We just need to live our life with a open heart.

To you my friend, thanks for letting me know how you feel. I really do appreciate it. But it won't change anything. I know you don't expect anything from this. So do I. But I want you to know that you are a great friend to me.A nice senior since secondary school. I wish you the best in life. ^^

The past is the past. We need to let it go. So do our feelings. in order to move on.

Anyway. watched Ice Age 4 and Batman last night. Batman was a last minute decision. In the end, me and my kai kor was so tired. Went home, kena a bit from daddy. But it didn't matter lar. I apologized.Also... How often do I come home that late anyway. Minus that part during internship. That one don't count. That was work.

It's been quite some time since I blog here. It's the work. Come home everyday half dead. Sleep. 

I think I need to stop drinking tea at night. Caffeine. Gosh. Probably that explains the active brain.

It's an awesome Saturday. I hope it would be a great one. No worries. Watch Olympics. Cheer for the Malaysians. Life. 

Move on

I guess this 2 words has been in my head for a long time.
Being so emo these days.must be the work stress!

Anyway...the pictures above are some photos I took from Central Market at Jalan Kasturi. It was during a workshop where each group had to do an assignment. The kuih is called Putu Bambu, a traditional Malay kuih. Fortunately, the owner of the shop allowed us to interview him and his shop was featured in our video.

I was fortunate to have all the other 5 of them in my group. At first, I was thinking, where are we going in this because they were quiet. Especially the boys. Anyway, we managed to produce the video within the time that we were given. With some mistakes in the video though.....But we were satisfied.

Here is the link of the video: http://switchup.tv/View.aspx?vid=8729&cid=26

In the video, we also feature a batik shop that teach customers to do batik. It's not like the traditional designs that we see but with cute animals in it. Also, we interviewed an antique shop owner who plays a guitar. He is so cool!


One of the group went to do a feature of Federal Hotel- BTS of hotel management. It was a cool topic! I wish I had the opportunity to do that, but unfortunately, I didn't. But it's okay. Central Market was also an eye opening experience too.



Another thing to talk about today was. I registered myself for degree today. Honestly speaking, I was kinda blur the whole morning. Not sure where to go and get stuffs.

Worse, I didn't know I need to get my picture taken for the Student card.Great! I look like a dead zombie due to the lack of sleep. Worked the afternoon shift last night and only went to sleep 12am plus. Seriously, like what my friend Michelle said, we don't sleep early when we have class but we still have the energy. But since we start working, everything seems to drain us. If I'm on morning shift, I sleep around 10 something but I wake up 7.30am the next morning...and my shift only starts at 10am. If I have class 8am in the morning, I only sleep around 11 something to  midnight.

I think that is all for now! Have an awesome weekend people. I shall enjoy it at my office tomorrow.